Guilt Is Subscription

Congratulations You found a wound with a monthly plan You call it conscience I call it rent You found a little bruise And built a tent Now you sit there glowing Like pain makes you deep One hand on the invoice One eye on the feed You don’t want clean You want receipts You want the stain With nicer sheets You want the shiver You want the score You want absolution Left outside the door Pay it again Say it again Bleed on command Then pay it again Guilt is subscription You keep it on renew Every little payment Buys a better you Guilt is subscription That’s why it never ends Cancel the charge And lose your friends You found a leash And called it care Found a cage And liked the air Every sin gets polished Every debt gets framed You look almost holy When you’re being named Nice little sinner Nice little glow Nice little ritual Everybody knows You don’t want mercy Mercy shuts the shop You need the wound open Or the status stops Pay it again Say it again Bleed on command Then pay it again Guilt is subscription You keep it on renew Every little payment Buys a better you Guilt is subscription That’s why it never ends Cancel the charge And lose your friends No, don’t look injured You like the bruise It gives you furniture A little chair A little stage A little mirror where your suffering looks well-read You don’t want forgiveness Forgiveness is unemployment You wear the debt Like borrowed skin Beg for the boot Then call it discipline Gut full of shame Mouth full of proof You built a church Out of being accused Guilt is subscription You keep it on renew Every little payment Buys a better you Guilt is subscription That’s why it never ends Cancel the charge And lose your friends Pay it again Say it again Bleed on command Then pay it again Pay it again Say it again No one gets clean If the guilt has to end For the tragic version, see "Atonement of Being" This one has invoices